A sign that he loves me

Yesterday, Thursday..... was a very very rough day for me. One of the hardest days I've had since Tony's been gone. I wasn't sure how my weekend would be since it was so rough yesterday. But then this morning I got a sign from Tony that he loves me.
Let me start a few days ago. On Wednesday, I'm not going to go into detail but my mom went back to Maryland. The first day back she found Tony's letter that he left for us. I'm not going to say anything other than he wrote I love you. My mom took a picture of that part for me because I asked her to, and sent it to me on my phone. Well yesterday, Thursday I set my wallpaper on my phone to show that picture where it said "i love you". The picture is kinda white and clashed with my icons. It was hard to see, so I changed it back to his picture. I went the rest of the day at work, through the grief class, and home. I went all night, woke up to my alarm and called Jessie to make sure he was awake for the day. And each and every time Tony's picture was there smiling at me with a sign saying, Don't worry, be happy.
About an hour later I picked up my phone to text someone, I paused and looked at Tony's picture...same way I do everytime I pick up my phone. When I tap the "tap here to compose" screen it usually pulls up my keypad. Well instead it screwed up and doubles the "tap here to compose" screen. I tried a few more times and decided to restart my phone. I figured that would correct the issue. Well when my phone came back on I looked at the screen to try to text again. But I had to stop and almost sit down because what I saw blew my mind. Instead of my brother's beautiful face with that goofy grin and silly sign. I saw in his writing the picture that said " I love you".
I've had this phone since July. I can't count how many times I've changed my wall paper on my phone. Never in the history of 100 changes has it gone back to an old picture. I believe with the deepest faith I've ever had that this was a sign from my brother. He wanted me to know that he loved me. He wanted me to see a reminder that he loved me every time I look at my phone. Which if you know me...that's a whole lot of times a day.
Now here's the awesome amazing wonderful news. Today was a very very good day. I did not cry. I smiled most the day. Smiling wasn't a struggle. I told people I was doing good and it wasn't a lie or sugar coating it. I had a very good day at work. After work I went to dinner with my parents, my kids and my boyfriend. Jessie got to meet my dad and Rhonda tonight. I think it went very well. Then we went to walmart to look for Khaiden's costume. Also for a few missing things from mine and the kiddos costumes. After Walmart we came to my apartment and between Jessie and I, we finished Bryson's costume and almost finished Brooke's.
　
I'll end on this note. Tell the people you love that you love them. Hug your family every chance you get. If you see someone struggling to smile, smile for them. If you know someone having a hard time standing up alone, hold your hand out, help them out and walk beside them. Help them learn to walk alone again. Help them get back on their feet. Just help them. Don't push them down. Don't look away. Don't ask someone else to do it. Here is a prayer that my aunt saw on Facebook. It really means a lot to me. <3 Thank you for reading God Bless you all.
Hello God, I called tonight
To talk a little while
I need a friend who'll listen
To my anxiety and trial.

... You see, I can't quite make it
Through a day just on my own...
I need your love to guide me,
So I'll never feel alone.

I want to ask you please to keep,
My family safe and sound.
Come and fill their lives with confidence
For whatever fate they're bound.

Give me faith, dear God, to face
Each hour throughout the day,
And not to worry over things
I can't change in any way.

I thank you God, for being home
And listening to my call,
For giving me such good advice
When I stumble and fall.. !!!!!!!

Your number, God, is the only one
That answers every time.
I never get a busy signal,
Never had to pay a dime.
So thank you, God, for listening
To my troubles and my sorrow.
Good night, God, I love You, too,
And I'll call again tomorrow!
P.S. Please bless all my friends and family too